two birds

being a holiday, this morning i got to have breakfast and an nice chat with my mom in our kitchen.

at one point, i went into the other room to get something.
when i came back, my mom pointed out an interesting phenomenon she'd been observing through the glass sliding door in our backyard:

there were two little robins, both scavenging for worms.
their approach was different than what we'd seen before
(our backyard is a popular place for robins)
-- the female plucked around where she was, but stayed patiently around the same area.
the male would hop around and find a worm, eat a bite, then hope over to give the rest to the female.

this had happened twice during my brief time in the other room.
how sweet, we thought.

i wanted to see it happen, but didn't have my contacts, so all i could see were two blurry shapes hopping around.
so i hurried to the bathroom to put them in.

when i came back, the two birds were still there.
i was excited to see this occurrence, but to my slight dismay it didn't happen for a while.

my mom had told me that it was awesome, though, so we sat together and stared out the window, following the birds with our eyes.
eventually, the male was so far away from the female that we had to adjust our positions to keep both in sight. i started to wonder if it would happen again.

finally, he found something, flew over to the female, and gave it to her.

i smiled.
seeing it was better than hearing about it.
it wasn't a big deal, but it was nice.
worth making the effort to put my contact in and see clearly, and worth the waiting.


letters after work on a really long day.

dear car keys::
please stop staying inside of my locked car when i am outside of it.

dear technology::
for as much as i love you sometimes (cs6 installed at work, woooo!), i often hate you (cs6 hates me, boooooo).

dear camera::
PLEASE come before friday so we can play before i need to use you.

dear above sentence::
i don't always work that way in relationships. promise.

dear sunshine::
are you still outside? cuz it'd be nice to see you after wanting to punch my computer all day.

dear applications for official, urgent stuff::

dear fhe::
i hope you have some good, tasty foods waiting for me. cuz if not, well...let's just not go there. it could be dangerous.



i've been picking at this post for the last few weeks like a kid picks at his steamed green beans. you know. come back to 'em every once in a while, knowing that you can't be excused from the table (or get dessert) til they're gone. obviously i've been on a bit of a posting hiatus, so maybe i'll just publish this one and i can move on to more dessert-like posts (i've started about 6 posts that are in my drafts folder....). some posts are just like that, i guess. ironically, i'm currently in a pleasant mood, though that's not necessarily the tone of this post. so, it is what it is.

if contemplative moody instrumental music had lyrics, i'd probably base this post around them.

but they don't.



lots of things have been changing recently.
like, too quickly. or too abruptly. or too...[insert that feeling of a bad aftertaste in your mouth here].

but at the same time, lots of things have stayed the same.
like, annoyingly the same.
almost so "the same" as to make me wonder if i'm missing something obvious.

and other things have been so surprising
that i don't really know how to deal with them.

these three qualifications,
in almost equal amounts. to the point where i'm almost amused.

and it kind of just makes me want to escape into some grassy field somewhere and not worry about it all, but instead watch the sky change moods and listen to whatever my ears pick up.

and on the other hand, i wish i could go turbo at everything: just plow through it all victoriously and tirelessly with superhuman strength.

food is starting to be a task rather than a joy, and who needs sleep, right?

i can't watch the clouds forever, and i'm not a plow. besides, i like food and sleep. and so my quest for balance continues.

sorry for all the food analogies.
i haven't eaten today; i'll fix that soon.